Sunday, August 21, 2005

My brother is thinking about buying a piece of property in Nicaragua. Yeah thats right Nicaragua. Not bad really. I looked it up on the net and it actually sounds pretty neat.

I wanted to also write some things down about how I lie to my wife so much. I am so afraid to tell her some things sometimes. Here are some examples.

1. I go to movies by myself and tell my wife that I am working.
2. I go to Fast Food joints and don't tell my wife that I ate there.
3. I make purchases on the internet or at stores and don't tell my wife about them until she finds them or sees coming in from the UPS truck.
4. I don't tell her about the amount of porn that I have looked at on the internet.
5. I don't tell her about all the times that I masturbate.

I am getting lightheaded just reading this as I write. Crazy.

We watched the Series Finale of Six Feet Under tonight on HBO. It was really good...When Claire was leaving to New York, and it showed them all dying at certain ages I really got emotional. I realized how much I love Summer. I don't show her that enough. I definitely take that for granted.

My brother is headed to Moscow for two to three months. He already has dates set up with Russian girls he has met on the net. I hope he doesn't get mugged or worse over there. He also is going to play on some big money tournaments too. I wish I was in better shape to go and play with him. But alas I weigh 334 lbs and although I am losing weight, I have a long way to go.

I won my first tennis match over the weekend. I won in three sets 10-7 in the third set superset tiebreak. I made two great backhand volleys on match point to win it. It felt so good. He was the #2 seed too so that was nice.

I might get two more houses in Jacksonville now. We'll see I have to do Title Searches on them. Its too bad our Real Estate Attorney's father died last week. He is really out of it and I hope he'll be able to grieve and all that stuff.

I am afraid to post this because what if Summer reads it? Its like that video "Dirty Little Secret" from the All-American Rejects.

I get to use my brother's Lobster Elite ball machine while he is gone so that will be great. I have lost 20 lbs in eight months. What does that come out to in ounces? I just figured it out and it means about 2.5 lbs a month. So at that rate I'll lose the rest of this weight by the time I am like 30. Wow.

Watching Six Feet Under makes me think about my own mortality. I don't want to die. I feel like maybe something is going to happen and that perhaps I haven't done all that I could. I wonder if I had gotten married to Summer when I did if I would have gained all this weight. I don't know. I love my kids but I don't think I was ready for kids.

I guess I am done.

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