I have so many things to say. I hesitate to write them all down because this goes on the net and and I like to keep things private. I don't know. I wish I had something clever to say like they have on TV.....

I was reading some of my older posts and it is interesting to remember moments from what seems so long ago..... It amazes me that I have closed a few houses in the past year. Got my brother paid back which feels good. The market is so up and down that we have to keep the status quo, and get Summer through school.

I miss my Dad...... he could be a real son of a bitch but I loved him and I miss him. I miss my Mom too but the loss of my Dad is more recent I've learned to deal with not having Mom around....

I lost some weight last year. Around 50 pounds but now I am stuck around 335 345 or so. I can't get the motivation to increase my exercise and make my eating better. Everyday my life seems to get in the way.

I wish we could win the lottery, or go on Biggest Loser, or someone will sweep in and save me from this existence. But I'm a fool....I love my kids and my family but I wonder if I am absent too much. I feel like this all could be too much for me.......

Can you tell I've been off my prozac for a couple of days?

Feels good to write something down...... I worry about my brother. He's in a loveless marriage and is risking his freedom to keep the money flowing to pay for his wife and her habits.... To his credit he is also trying to pay for his step-daughter's education but I worry that is all for naught....

I don't know I'm pretty down right now. I'm going to go to bed.....

Wow its been a long time again, and again..... Summer has lost all of her weight pretty much and is looking really great. She cut her hair and I'm loving it even though I thought I would like the longer hair better. We have moved into a house in Orlando that is really nice. It's big and spacious and free rent can't be beat. But it won't last. Sam and Jakey are doing great in kindergarten and 1st grade. Addison has been attending Kindercare day-care when Summer has been going to UCF. Speaking of UCF Summer is almost done and ready to graduate after just one more semester. I am trying to decide what I want to do for a graduate degree. MBA? Law Degree? Digital Forensics? Lots of questions. Not sure what I am supposed to do, really.

My Dad died at the end of January this year. His lifelong battle with Diabetes, and a nasty case of MRSA from a nursing home got him in a weeks time. I had to pull the plug and I watched his life expire. It still haunts me at times....

When we moved we switched wards and are now in a different stake as well. The new ward is very affluent and we are having a difficult time adjusting really. We miss our old ward and our old friends.

The house business is picking up we've closed five houses in the past few months. Best part time job I've ever had! We're reopening our company for tax purposes too which is great progress.

My 9-5 job has done well too. I am signing up accounts left and right and getting recognized for it. But I am one rep of three in a small geographical area and I am afraid that in this economic climate it may mean that I get laid off or "down sized". If it does I won't be surprised but I'm trying to do my best to make me too valuable.

I am writing to update everyone on this blog. I am now a Sales Rep with my company that I started with soon after the foreclosure market went bust. I'm thinking about getting back into the market though since my brother has perfected some really good techniques for getting discounts.

Recently, I was extended a calling as First Counselor of the Elders Quorum in my ward. Its been really interesting learning and getting used and comfortable with this calling. Not to mention it has strengthened my testimony.

I have worked out two days in a row and I have watched my eating as well. I want to journal all of my meals and I am starting Nutrisystem again, it has been ordered and will arrive soon. I'm excited. Right now I weigh 373 give or take.

Sam is doing well in Kindergarten, even though sometimes he hits the other kids when they do stuff he doesn't like but we're working on that.... he is learning to read and do math. Jacob is doing the same but is only in VPK. Addison is cruising constantly and should be walking anytime. She is just adorable and a perfect baby girl.

Summer is finishing up school and going to get her Physician's Assistant Degree from UCF and a Post Graduate school to be named later.

Summer, Sam, Jacob and Addy are all starting school next week! Of course just Sam and Summer's schools are real, Jacobs and Addy's are preschool but hey they are all growing up!

Summer is starting school again at UCF, and she is very excited about finishing up her education.

More to come soon....

I just had a few minutes of rain so I decided to go ahead and post real quick since it's been like ten months since I posted last.

So many things to cover. Well we live in Orlando area now. I have been promoted three times since I started working a normal job. Its been a fun time. I am now a Sales Rep, I get a company car that I switch out every week and I get free gas.

Summer had our baby, we named her Addison Reese and she is absolutely perfect. She is almost seven months now. Sam starts school in August...Kindergarten! Jacob starts VPK soon too and Summer is going back to school and getting her B.S. in Molecular Biology at UCF. She is excited about that as well. Anyway that is all for now more to come if I get time!

So yeah things have changed, so we had to adapt. I have been working a normal 9 to 5 now for almost two months. Well actually it's really a 7 to 6 job with work on Saturdays every other week but you know what I mean.

I like the job though. Everyday you do something different and it always involves cars. So I got that going for me...which is nice. The days go by quick and I can totally stand the people that I work with so thats good too. The only thing I have to get used to is having a boss over me. I mean always sort of did with my brother but that was more of a partner thing then a boss deal.

But I think that I am picking things up rather quickly and I want to get promoted quickly which I hope can happen in a few months or so. So anyways gotta go. Oh by the way Summer is pregnant again! She is almost 5 months and we find out the sex of the baby on September 6th! So we're excited about that. Dad is living with us now as well but he is probably going to move to Nashville in an Asssited Living center up there in the winter sometime. So laters.

A few days ago I was knocking on doors on Space Coast and I stopped in a predominantly black community, well pretty soon a very large black man with corn rows, pants halfway down his thighs and oversized white shirt, approached me with a shotgun. He was coming to "talk" to me or maybe shoot at me who knows? Needless to say I put my car in drive and took off. That door didn't get knocked on that day.

We got a homeowner out today. She actually left it somewhat clean so it won't take too long to clean and paint. Hopefully we'll make some money on the deal.

On the way home I got behind a biker on a sweet Harley Davidson motorcycle. Guess what his license plate said? "Hogasm" Need I say any more. Yeah. Nice.

It's my Father-in-law's birthday today and Summer and the kiddies are over on the West Coast of Florida spending the day. So I am all by my lonesome. So I worked out, made some phone calls, watched a couple of videos, and updated this blog.

If you notice I put some more links up to you (the random stranger, yeah right!) to show what I am reading and listening to at the moment. Not literally of course but pretty darn close.

Ipods are probably the best invention in the history of music. Music helps your mood so much.

I downloaded the Curious George Soundtrack and it rocks. Also downloaded the new Arctic Monkeys album.

Went to the doctor today and my triglycerides are still high, my cholesterol is okay but not great. Need to stay on the Nutrisystem and lose some where weight!

We got quotes on Health Insurance today too. 932 ducats a month for the whole fam-damily. Completely ridiculous!!! But what are you gonna do?

Dad's bugging me about helping him with his traffic course that I signed him up for. I told him flat out that if he kept bugging me about it then I would NOT help him at all. It really sucks that my Father only respects me when he is afraid that I might not help him. What a sad state of affairs.

Laters.

Happy Freakin' Valentines Day

It's been a long day today. I woke up at 5:40 am to get up to Daytona by 8:30 am. A hearing was scheduled for a house we have up there. We needed 60 day sale extension and we got it. Thank goodness. So back down the Space Coast to the house and then off to a business meeting to explain our business plan to a hard money lender that lives in my ward who may want to do business. It went pretty well and I think that it may be beneficial for both of us. We'll see.

Then off to knockin on doors and making calls. I made all my calls and called every single skip. Proud of that. The meeting for the money really motivated me. I think I'll get one if I keep at it hard core until Dohnnie gets back.

Summer got her flowers, candy, and vase that I got for her. She also got flowers from her Dad which was nice. She also got the boys stuff which was sweet. They remember and appreciate her doing that when they're older. That stuff creates memories. She's cool.

I also got free screening passes for Nochnoi Dozor or Night Watch that is showing in Orlando at the end of the month. It is a Russian Vampire movie ala The Matrix or Underworld. But it's supposed to be better then Underworld for sure. Now all we have to do is get a sitter for it. It's on Monday night though so the Mormon crowd might object since it's FHE and all. Hopefully we'll figure something out.

Oh I almost forgot, our nanny is gone glory halleujah (sic?) she is gone. She flew out of our lives this morning, thank goodness. I have never been so happy to see someone go. She had soooo worn out her welcome. She has a lot of growing up to do and she made good money with us. Like close to 10K in all. So I am outtie laters.

I was just reading a news article about making your own website. The journalist used blogger.com and iweb from Apple as good examples for that. So I thought that I might write a post since I was coming over here anyway.

So what's been going since the last post? Well Dohnnie is over in Russia playing tennis against Russia's weekend warriors and our nanny is leaving soon (thank goodness).

We are really trying to stay on a budget that will cut our costs. Getting rid of Tina will really help that.

I played in a tennis tournament at the end of January and I really hurt my knee. It swelled up and I could hardly even bend it for days. It is just now starting to get back to normal. I think I'll play the next Lake Cain tournament in Orlando at the end of the month so we'll see how I do. I am thinking about playing 3.0 since the USTA ranked me down since my record last year at 3.5 was so crappy. Hey I would probably get better results. The guy who beat me last won the tournament too. He was Polish and couldn't tell me in English what the score was. Very frustrating.

Two days after my loss in the tennis tourney I had my call back interview for that reality show I am auditioning for. It went okay. I was nervous and they taped it as they asked me questions. I'll know something by the end of February but I am not convinced at all that I'll make it.

At this same time I got on Nutrisystem. I was skeptical at first, but I have already lost 10 lbs in 10 days. I am eating 1500 to 2000 cal a day now and it seems to be coming off. And since my knee has been bothering me I have only exercised twice in that time. Once I hit the exercising harder the weight should start melting off!!!

I feel a lot more positive now since I am eating better. I totally went a through a fat or junk withdrawal when I started eating better. I don't stuff myself and I don't feel guilty at all for eating.

Summer and I took the kids to see Curious George tonight. That is one cute, wholesome, little movie. Not real fancy animation; it stays true to the books that I read as a child. I got very emotional and teary eyed when Ted with the Big Yellow Hat had his personal adventures with George. I remembered my mom reading those stories to me as a child and I missed her so much! My mom died of a Heart Attack when I was 15. I miss her so much. George reminded me of my kids too how innocent and good hearted they are. It's too bad she never got to play with them. I guess we all have to wait until we're up there with her.

I really enjoyed watching the Davis Cup Tie US vs Romania yesterday as well. Andy Roddick showed some real heart throwing up and battling cramps to almost pull off the five set victory. He had Pavel in the third set tiebreak but a good lob deflated him.

Anyways thats about all I spose for now......

You know I have to admit, that picture on my profile is at least three years old. It definitely does not reflect me since I moved down here. That will be two years in May.

We have 14 houses now. Several under contract so we are pleased. Things are cooking. I am also auditioning for a very prominent Reality Show on one of the 4 major networks. I won't say which one but I have gotten a call back and meet the producers soon so I am excited. I never thought I would try out for a TV show.

I just saw Kobe Bryant hit a fade away over LeBron James to put the Lakers up 2 with 8 seconds left in the game. I hate Kobe but he's money down the stretch in big games.

We had a good Christmas this year. Sam really understood what Santa Claus was about and the concept of opening presents on Christmas morning and making a mess. We spent the day with Dohnnie and his Russian ex-wife's family. It was actually very nice and relaxing not stressful or controversial at all.

I have been very hesitant to write anything here because of what Summer might say or disapprove of...So any relationship stuff with her is obviously off limits and I was wrong to cross that line. A line that I crossed in a stupid blind love affair with honesty at 4 o'clock in the morning when I wrote the post that she questioned. Anyways, whats done is done and now I have the new rules.

Our nanny is leaving us at the end of February. That sucks but she wants to go back to Idaho. I think we were a schock to her system of how righteous, church going Mormons could be so different then her family. She is good with the kids and NEVER gets mad about anything. I swear I could punch her in the face and she would smile and say thank you afterward.

I left a comment on blog of a girl in Provo that I thought was an old girlfriend in high school. Well of course its not the same girl. So she probably thinks I am stalking now or something. Well I"M NOT!! Eh who knows.

Got to make an offer on a house in Deltona tomorrow. it might be a hot one. They look motivated and their mortgage company won't help them. The bank probably just wants the house.Well we'll see about that!

Laters

Its been awhile again....It's Thanksgiving day. I attempted to fry our Turkey this year. We bought a fryer and the requisite peanut oil. Everything seemed to be working great until I put the bird in the oil and discovered that I didn't have enough to immerse it completely. So off I go to Wal-Mart to buy more. Of course they're sold out. So I had Summer take the bird out of the oil. Of course we both forgot to turn the heat down. So when I came back with a bunch of Canola Oil, the oil in the pot was about to spontaneously combust after reaching 500 degrees Fahrenheit.

So I poured the new oil in and that cooled it down along with me turning the heat down. Then I put the bird back in and fried it for about 20 minutes and the whole was done and it looked black on the outside making me think it was burnt. Of course, it wasn't; it was a very tender, juicy turkey, but it looked back on the outside.

Next time I'll do the fry thing a lot better. But isn't that like everything in life? So that's all.

So have any of you ever had a problem with Dell Laptops with the screen going off for no reason? Well I have and now I can't use my laptop at all. It needs a new motherboard and I'll lose all my memory good thing I backed most of it up while I was researching this problem. So I have four houses this month. I got two in one deal on Thursday. They are short sales but hey I'll take them.

It was a crazy thing, this lady used her credit to buy two houses for a friend of hers and now they are both in foreclosure.

Tomorrow I'll call a prison in Daytona Beach to see if I can talk to an inmate who has a house in foreclosure. That is pretty cool. He's in for two counts of Cocaine and one count of Marijuana. He also got a really big settlement from GMC from a defective part in Camaros in the early 80s. I found all this out by searching the public record.

I haven't been to church in quite a few weeks. I told the Bishopric that I need to be released because I can't be there consistently. In fact I have been to the Temple more recently then to church. Anyway I gotta put the kids to bed they crashed in our bedroom. Laters.

I took two Ambien an hour ago and I might be writing this under the influence of sleep enhancers. I had to go through and change all my email contacts to get them to send to my new right email. Try this site for acheat sheet about to get around automated systems.

Still deciding on whether I want to kill off this blog or maybe rename it or start a new one. I'll let you know.

Cardinals won last night, Pujols hit a bomb in the ninth with two outs and two on base. I went nuts jumping on the bed.

Another hurricane is coming. Wilma looks like she'll come for South Florida early next week hopefully it'll miss us. We're prepared though we have wood and water and a generator in case something goes wrong. So we'll see. That's all.

I turned on word verification to prevent all the comment spam. I have been getting a lot of that lately. Its funny how they try and build you up and then hit you with a solicitation for music on interest free credit or something stupid like that.

I played my match tonight and I won 6-1 and 6-2. It took a while and the guy was late because he got lost. I don't think I am going to schedule anymore matches on Sunday. I don't think its right. I'll work on Sunday because our "ox" is in the mire so to speak but playing tennis I think is too much.

I am thinking about deleting this blog anyway and keeping a journal on my computer only not available on the internet. Needless to say some people read this and were hurt by the content so I don't know if it is worth it anymore. I am going to think about it, however. Anyway, I am out.

I got a house again. It is a 3/2 in Titusville we'll get it for 85K and hopefully sell it for 120 to 130K. Oh and by the way, Summer says that I have a party in my pants and you are NOT invited.

Funny the things that get said across the marriage bed.....

I have gotten three houses in the past month. So not bad really. I have really been knocking and working hard.

Tomorrow I start the Orlando Flex League which is the singles league that I have been anxiously awaiting. I haven't played tennis in awhile so it should be fun. There is a tournament coming up on the 22nd in Orlando so I might play in it. Anyway that's all for now.

So here we are...Dohn met with a tennis buddy and he is starting a new business down in SW Florida providing investment opportunities for pre-construction down there. It sounds pretty good, but we don't have enough credit history to get going on it yet. There are too many conditions for us to qualify so it won't work. Its too bad could have been a great opportunity. Maybe we'll try in May of 2006 once it has been two years of self-employment.

I have been really knocking down the doors. I didn't get the trailer that I was looking at because the guy called a "Stop Foreclosure" sign and he offered him 1K plus money to get into a house. It wasn't even that great of a deal in the first place. Oh well, I have a couple other of possibles in Titusville and Deland. So we'll see.

I have been doing a lot of Genealogy lately. We are going to the Temple on Friday and we'll do some more work. I want to go as far as I can with it. It'll be neat.

My Singles Tennis League starts this week. I have a match this week sometime. Should be fun....

So my brother is back.... He seemed somewhat civil on the phone today. Maybe he doesn't hate me after all. I knocked on ten doors today in Orange County. I also got laser treatment for my tatoo to have it removed. The laser feels almost identical to what it felt like to get the tatoo done in the first place. But this procedure will cost 20 times more to remove then to install. Talk about a stupid tax.

Summer was in a car accident last year. Nobody was hurt but she was found at fault and we didn't have enough insurance so we are dealing with a law firm in North Florida that is threatening to sue. They want us to sign a stipulation that basically says they can enter a final judgment if we fall behind.... Crazy. I think we will probably sign but I want all the "t's" and "i's" crossed and dotted.

On the radio today they were talking about myspace.com with MSN and all that. I have a space but I really prefer this blog right here. It serves as a journal for me.

I am getting back into the swing of working. I have knocked every day this week. I didn't skip hardly any doors and no movies.

Tomorrow I go talk to a women in Cocoa who is renting a house that we just bought. We are going to try and convince her to move. But we'll see. She is on month to month lease so we'll give her thirty day notice if she refuses then we'll evict her. But it could make it really hard to sell the house. And I need this house to sell to pay Dohnnie back.

I wish I could get up the gumption to eat better and exercise. Now that I am focusing on knocking and working, it is really hard ot even think about working out. The tennis singles league starts next week so maybe that will help with motivation. I am just so tired when I get home. I drive between 200 to 350 miles a day sometimes. It tires you out in a different way then real hard manual labor. It is more emotional and in your head.

Summer had a baby shower tonight and Tina went to Institue so the boys and I watched the Braves and Astros NLDS. It was fun, Sam and Jake really enjoyed it. It was fun to spend some quality time.

The Cardinals won today also, they are up 2-0 just need one more win to advance. They look good but their relief pitching seems shaky to me. Anyway thats it. Laters.

So its a been a little while since I wrote. We had a closing and I was supposed to get half the net profit. Well my brother who is the boss was out of town so I told the Real Estate Attorney to send it all to me. So know I owe my brother like 15k.

I almost got separated over it. And obviously, my brother doesn't trust me anymore. I had to practically beg just to not get kicked out of my own house. So I have been knocking a lot these past couple of weeks as a result. I am getting back into the swing of things for sure.

We replaced the water heater on our own in our house. That was fun. Summer is tiling a shower in our master bath and laying a tile floor. It is going slowly but she is doing a good job.

We transferred the internet over to Cable and it is so much faster!!! We are also getting Vonage for our business phone which will save us a hundred bucks a month.

Sammy is getting potty trained again very well.

I have decided to take the LSATs in December and see how I do. I want to apply to Law Schools to start next fall. But the trick will be getting something in Orlando. Otherwise we would have to move and I don't want to do that yet.

Ironically, Summer and I have been going to the Temple a lot and it has helped me get an idea of what I really want to do with my life and where I need to improve myself and really make decisions that deal with the real world and not the world inside of my head.

So anyway that is all for now.

My record in NTRP 3.5 Men's Singles this year is 2-9. I have played eleven matches. My matches will go up when the Fall Flexible Singles League starts. It should be fun.